I feel its a dirty little secret and probably is to most of you…. but sadly and stupidly I admit it online. Oh well Im out and Im proud lol I have enjoyed breastfeeding ,it has been fabulous for both my son and myself. Its been a fabulous comfort tool, given fantastic nutrition when my child has been sick, generally and when he needed to go to sleep or some comfort. I cant believe the magical powers of breast milk.

I had no problems with consitipation even tho I dabbled in formula feeds for the late night dream feed…and its always been a saviour for me and my son.

Over time the breastfeeding relationship has changed unexpectantly. It has changed from the much needed nutrition to the extra toddler supplment just like the toddler formula ads promote although breast milk is even better and more magical. It has morphed into the as needed support and emotional copmfort/sickness helper.

I surprise myself everytime that there is in fact still milk still there and I have to check with my son and my nipple but yup surprise surprise it still there. The hope was I would be pregnant with 2nd child and wouldnt have to go thru that transition of engorged breast horribillus… and because I wasnt ready to give up my baby and my baby wasnt ready to give up breast milk. Sadly thats changed recently with the horrible 3yr old tanties which are shocking..

I remember sitting in TAFE studying my Diploma  years ago when I was a youngen at least 14 yrs ago and my Teacher telling the class how she was still breastfeeding her 2yo and me thinking OMG that is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo gross and WRONG!!!! and how Im never doing that. LMAO yup sadly thats me.. I accept that may be your opinion and as the title goes its my dirty little secret. Sadly im out and loud and I love it and so does my son.  Its not actually and surprisingly not gross… its the same as it always was.. lovely, natural, caring, helpful ,natural and I dont know how my boobs do it… but my milk is still there even though its not every day and not always once a day. It will go I assume soonish as he  no longer really needs it and i am ready for it to finish.. when hes readt, but we just go on as needed atm. My hubby and I make a special point to not to remind and just leave it to my son to request it as needed. When we feel its more emotional than actually needed such as when he is sick to say in a joking way "oh no you dont really need it" but when he is sick or emotional I allow it.

I dont feeel as tho I should feel guilty and I think breast is best. Its extended feeding and it works for us… 

I have to say though in looking back at the past breastfeeding is something I thought i wouldnt be able to do and would NOT want to do. I had all kinds of reasons for this but funnily enough I am still continuing to do this as its been such a great experience for me and my bub and hubby for the last few years. Judge me as you willl.

nightnanniesmum :: Jul.28.2007 :: Uncategorized :: 2 Comments »

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